Well...don't know if anyone out there can relate, but I'm beginning to realize that living with autism is a marathon. I always thought that since Seth got intervention at such a young age, that he would get better. I always thought if I gave every ounce of energy I had, I could still be sustained by the time he got "better." I am now realizing that I was treating my life as a sprint, when it is in fact, a marathon. Hard to swallow? Yes, I would say so! For the past three and a half years I've been waiting for some therapy to kick in and act as a miracle. I still have that hope, but I am learning that I need to accept. I need to accept Seth, accept life with all the challenges and just be content. Don't get me wrong, I would never turn back time, I wouldn't trade Seth for anything! He is literally my heart! My whole heart! I love him more than I thought my heart could ever love. I do though, wish that life could be more simple. Less routine, less screaming...more easy days. So, I am working on accepting that this will most likely be a life long journey. Better roads sometimes, bumpier roads other times. It is hard to swallow when you thought life would be different, but if I always focus on what I thought I would have had...I will never see the true joy and beauty that I DO HAVE in Seth! So, I will pray to accept more easily and keep my head up for this marathon of life I have been given. Realize my blessings and stay positive. I hope that everyone else with daily struggles can try and do the same. (even if it's just some of the time) :)
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